Another Cloudy day

Today why i get mad ?
i don't know why
You accompany at the first
but left me at the back later
Human said" no pain no gain "
i said "No care no pain "

Zhang always told me
Less care something
Less hurt

Today i came in happily
Leave from dark side

I lost my Anti-Radioactive stuff
i keeping waiting
keep texting
keep calling

but i get nothing
i get a mention
We 8.30 ah !
but...
finally you here at 9.00 am

Firstly
we go find the stuff
after found the stuff

you left
for balls

i dont like play balls with others
you keep ask me why dont play together
what should i do

finally I left
Before left...
i text a msg
and go study myself

but i didnt receive your call
i keep waiting
another waiting again
i gave up
i very disappointed
I go the hall

i thought you will ask me something
but you didnt...
you keep playing your badminton

Suddenly you came
I in bad mood
i scolded you
1st sorry

then i go for basketball myself
you came
for basketball too
but not with me
I stayed alone
you Keep playing again

My heart like burning
i can't release the heat in my heart
i keep throwing the basketball
i heard yihung ask me why emo at my back

then i cried awhile
i don't like to expose my feeling
but i cant be strong anymore
i keep playing the ball
let the tears mixed with the sweat
nobody saw
nobody felt

I keep telling myself
don't care so much
Ppl wan play balls mah, you don't wan play oni mah , so angry for wad ?
I calm
i tried to laugh
i tried to camouflage myself
it was so fake

i laugh all the smiles of a week in today
i used up all of it

When i back home
I try to tell him what my feeling today
but he seems like not concern on it
he like playing his games more

Who I can find
Nobody

Blog
You helped me much.....

No care No pain
I learnt from you
Heartless Human

Nobody found me

Thats how you treat me



Right ?

What did I do
What should I do
When I did
When you changed
When I changed
Who can I trust
Who can you trust
Not me , but you
Made a silence
But I really didn't meant that
I just thinking
Something
I swear I didn't saw you
But I saw your back
But I am so sorry it was too late
I just wanted to say
Hi
Maybe i should so blur

Today
I expect 2nd recess
Can lunch
Finally I didn't
Still stay there
I can't be strong anymore
I give up for waiting
Then I go buy some food
The food
Was so salty
With my tears in deepened

Did I drop into hole of despire again ?
Such an insane question

Still waiting a stupid reply crazily
When can I Giv up on waiting

Should be ask you

Today saw a nice perfomance
But
Laugh so fake
Depressed
And don't know what can do
Just
Keep watching
Nice but

I found that today I am such an idiot
Did alot brainless action
So stupid
Hey fatty !
Can you wake up !
You really such an idiot !!!!!

Felt guilty....
I dreamed a dream...
What a wonderful dream....

Saw banana online at 1200 occlock ...
But u slept edi ...
Sad:(

Depressed

The path you chosen...You were never satisfied

Wow....
Full A dream....
As a friend....
i must say cheer up and keeping up your study ....
As a brother...
i have to say....
don't push yourself too hard on it....
Try to get smaller aiming...
You won't get more hurt....
Try to get satisfied....
Your path will be more happiness...

Banana

What the hell you told me
but you just can't get it what i angry about.....

you gotta lock up the door?

before that....
let me locked first


you really such an idiot

23/7/2011

this is the first post in year 2011....
I met an important new friend this year.....
Stupid idian.....
Seems like he is the friend i can tell those things to him....
He is a good friend just like a place you can trust and stay on it.....
Maybe is this reason....
I trust him....

When I sad.....
no body knows....
but the stupid indian just keep cheering me up....
i appreciate what he did ....
because it was an important stuff for me....
I am not greedy....
What I need ....
Is concern and support....

This friday...
i saw zhang having a damn bad mood at class....
after i see more clearly....
he just can't control himself more....
he same like me yesterday....
just dropped 'them'....
As a friend...
should give some comfort to him....
So i post something on his wall....
i said ....cheer up Bro....

At the same time....
the stupid indian pm me...
he told me something terrible....
and he order me to remove the post.....

I felt sad....
what he understood?
he thought i post it after heard what he said?
ridiculous ....
he just don't know he make me felt damn sad....
I just care this so much....

Today was a rainy day ....with lighting bolt......
after school...
i thought i can chat normally with him....
originally....
i can't....
I went for my math homework....
he came back to the dining table....
i keep doing my work....
but he sat more further...
for watching basketballs....

Strange feel...
if you don't wan sit here just say...
i will leave....
finally....
i choose to leave for calming down....
before i left the school...
i looked back inside....
he keep looking in the match.....
no body knows i left....
more sad....

Walking to the block such as an idiot...
walking alone without shadow....
rain drops....
drop...
and drop....
shirt get wet.....
and my tears....
queuing up to come out....

i keep walk....
finally there....
i rest and calm.....
after that saw kai xiang ....
he asked me...
argue with them edi?
luckily i calmed it down...
if not i sure cry....
thx kai xiang anyway...

after tuition...
went back by stupid douglas car....
so long no chat with him...
chat till he send me wrong station....
What a sad case again....
since that...
i take lrt and keep msg him...
told what am i thinking...
but seems like he not understanding....

What I did that all is worst thing....
he text me just now....
he say he don't know wtf he did and make me so crazy on this....
I no bird him since thursday....
thats the main point....

he didn't meant to find out the reason right....
nevermind...
just let him misunderstood me.....
i am not a good friend also....

weak....
incompetent....
hopeless me....

i think he is starting to give up me as a friend....

I am happy to met you this friend....
i swear...

but i just cant acept you don't trust me ....before you make it clear....

maybe i keep scold on you .....
but you did it the same thing to me when i post the thing in zhang wall....

i just a normal person....
not as strong as you thought.....


sorry
bryan...